"BRAIN SCAN OF TAD" by Tad "JTK.CA" NudistPoet
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Copyright © JONATHAN TAD KETCHEN
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Take a look inside my brain. I have OCD (Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder) to the point of being on Disability pensions for it. The nice thing about not having to work anymore is I'm not bound to a schedule. I make up my life as I go along. The downside is also, "I'm not bound to a schedule," so there is a rather haphazard and chaotic rhythm to my days and nights. I probably sleep over eight hours per 24 hour period. I just don't do it all at once. I sleep for a few hours, do internet for a few hours, sleep for another few hours, watch TV for a few hours, sleep for a few hours, etc. I only eat an average of one meal a day because even making a microwave dinner is a big production with OCD.
Lots of hand washing is one of my OCD symptoms. I now wash my hands with moist towelettes, but when I used to use soap and water for all my hand washing, the repeated washings made my hands really raw. The moist towellettes are a great solution for me. They've not reduced my hand washing; but they do not hurt my hands like too many soap and water hand washings used to. A canister of wet wipes accompanies me wherever I go; no I don't have a baby--OCD is enough for me to deal with. I like to joke that I keep the moist towelette industry in business.
Another OCD ritual I have is whenever I'm out and about town and I put something into or take something out of my pocket, I have to walk a few steps away and then look back to where I was standing, to make sure nothing fell out of my pocket. Pockets are not really a problem when I'm at home because I am a home nudist.
When I worked, before I got the Disability pensions, my bosses were always amazed at the quality of my work but rather miffed with the quantity. I would spend so much time doing some things perfectly that a lot of the things on my "to do" list were suffering. I often take at least 3 times longer to do things than the average person. My last two jobs each lasted two years, and my employers were very accommodating of my OCD; but after two years, they could no longer afford to keep giving me raises and cutting me slack. I decided to stop torturing myself and get the help I needed, so I got the federal (Canada) and provincial (Ontario) Disability pensions for my OCD.
I've told you a couple of my OCD symptoms, but I have many more. I beat myself up psychologically about the OCD a lot less than I used to. My attitude is that God made my brain work the way it does for a reason. I suspect that I would not have my poetic, artisitic, and photographic creative passions without my OCD. Mediocrity makes me cringe. I either do something perfectly or not at all. I cannot figure out why people want to do something without doing the very best job possible. The downside is that there ends up being a lot of mediocrity in my life in all the things that I put off into infinity, because the thought of doing them perfectly exhausts me. As a result, I don't start. And if I do start, I rarely finish the project in the same session. I have a short attention span. And speaking of short attention spans, I am a slow reader with a short attention span, so I often give up half-way through a magazine or newspaper article, even if I'm interested in the content. It amazes me that I actually finished reading the novels I was assigned in junior high. Let's see, since grade 8, I think I have only finished reading ONE novel. I've started plenty, but I usually would get half-way through, or less, and then rent the movie. I would also figure out the rest of the story by paying attention to class discussion. I would throw in a comment here or there as a tangent to what someone else said, giving the illusion that I had actually read my homework. The ONE novel I finished in university was "THE ADVENTURES OF HUCKLEBERRY FINN" by Mark Twain. The reason I finished it was out of guilt because the professor of the class asked, "Tad, have you done any of the reading assignments I've given you." I uncomfortably answered, "Very little." I promised him I would finish HUCK FINN and I actually did it, as long and tortuous an ordeal as that was. It's ironic that I am a prolific writer who hardly ever reads. I've written over 700 poems, and I've read and proofread them many times. But I've read very little of other authors. I read bits and pieces of things until my attention span wanes and I'm off to some other mental adventure. Even though writing poetry is my main creative outlet, there are very few poets I like. Most of them write unintelligible drivel. I think they get published because of the publisher's ego. The publisher believes himself to be brilliant, so when he reads the poet's work and cannot understand it, he comes to the conclusion, "I am brilliant, and I cannot understand this. Therefore, this poet must be phenomenal. Let's publish him." Brian Patten, a British poet, is about the only poet I like. I love his work, because I can understand him; my mother even sees a lot of similarities between his poetry and mine. I bought extra copies of "STORM DAMAGE" by Brian Patten and gave them to friends. It's such an awesome book of poetry. I also think several singer/songwriters, like Suzanne Vega, Bruce Cockburn, Michael Card, and Robert Smith (of The Cure), are great poets, although singer/songwriters are generally not found in the "Poetry" section of your bookstore. My favourite prose writer is Kathleen Norris because of her lyrically brilliant book, "DAKOTA: A Spiritual Geography"; even though I never finished the book, I thoroughly enjoyed every word I read. One nice thing about it is you can jump around and read chapters in no particular order, because each section is an independent thoughtscape from each other section. Several short, independent stories, is what my short attention span likes. That's why my http://TadCreations.com website leads to hundreds of my poems, four of my stories, and zero of my novels.
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JONATHAN TAD KETCHEN
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2017-12-09
"JTK INITIALS ME, BUT THE LETTERS SHOULD BE OCD" ::: © JTK.CA
"JTK INITIALS ME, BUT THE LETTERS SHOULD BE OCD"
TAD is JTK.CA NudistPoet
Copyright © Jonathan Tad Ketchen
I saw a documentary on Howard Hughes's "SEVERE OCD," and it felt rather strange, since it was like they were describing me. We've shared a lot of the same disturbing symptoms. Bathing for me is torture, so it happens rarely. I can picture the one to two hours of OCD rituals it will involve, so I put it off into infinity. And, when I do "finally" give in, it's a half-hour of water, instead, because the soap would just complicate the showering process. Occasionally, I take a bubble bath, to help alleviate my tendency to over-use the soap, like I over-do everything that I do. My rationale with the bubble bath is that I am "in" soap, in the hopes that it will control my need to over-soap. Another oddity is that I am more comfortable with showering at a nudist resort or event (surrounded by naked friends and strangers) than I am with showering alone at home. Needless to say, my bathing phobia is one major reason, I keep most of my social life online. I love one episode of STAR TREK: THE NEXT GENERATION, in which Worf is asked if he wants to go swimming, to which he responds in a tone of disgust, "Swimming is too much like BATHING." Ironically, with my lack of bathing, I do wash my hands and forearms with moist towelettes around 20 times a day. Repeated hand-washings used to make my hands raw, but I've discovered moist towelettes are my solution. I probably wash my hands even more now than I did with soap and water; but it does not hurt my hands anymore. When I'm in the checkout at the grocery store, with my 16 cannisters of moist towellettes, I like to joke to the teller, "I keep the moist towelette industry in business." I've written extensively on my OCD at JTKdotCA.blogspot.ca/search?q=OCD. Now, if only I could figure out how to make millions of dollars with it, like Howard Hughes did. Then again, in many ways, the money ruined his life; so I'm content the way things are for me.
I'm a male nude model who is turning 50 later this month, and I have ablutophobia (fear of bathing). So, I am, literally, a #DirtyOldMan! 🤪💖
TAD is JTK.CA NudistPoet
Copyright © Jonathan Tad Ketchen
I saw a documentary on Howard Hughes's "SEVERE OCD," and it felt rather strange, since it was like they were describing me. We've shared a lot of the same disturbing symptoms. Bathing for me is torture, so it happens rarely. I can picture the one to two hours of OCD rituals it will involve, so I put it off into infinity. And, when I do "finally" give in, it's a half-hour of water, instead, because the soap would just complicate the showering process. Occasionally, I take a bubble bath, to help alleviate my tendency to over-use the soap, like I over-do everything that I do. My rationale with the bubble bath is that I am "in" soap, in the hopes that it will control my need to over-soap. Another oddity is that I am more comfortable with showering at a nudist resort or event (surrounded by naked friends and strangers) than I am with showering alone at home. Needless to say, my bathing phobia is one major reason, I keep most of my social life online. I love one episode of STAR TREK: THE NEXT GENERATION, in which Worf is asked if he wants to go swimming, to which he responds in a tone of disgust, "Swimming is too much like BATHING." Ironically, with my lack of bathing, I do wash my hands and forearms with moist towelettes around 20 times a day. Repeated hand-washings used to make my hands raw, but I've discovered moist towelettes are my solution. I probably wash my hands even more now than I did with soap and water; but it does not hurt my hands anymore. When I'm in the checkout at the grocery store, with my 16 cannisters of moist towellettes, I like to joke to the teller, "I keep the moist towelette industry in business." I've written extensively on my OCD at JTKdotCA.blogspot.ca/search?q=OCD. Now, if only I could figure out how to make millions of dollars with it, like Howard Hughes did. Then again, in many ways, the money ruined his life; so I'm content the way things are for me.
I'm a male nude model who is turning 50 later this month, and I have ablutophobia (fear of bathing). So, I am, literally, a #DirtyOldMan! 🤪💖
2011-01-14
"HAPPILY RETIRED" :::: © Tad "JTK.CA" NudistPoet
"HAPPILY RETIRED"
© Tad "JTK.CA" NudistPoet
I love being retired. It means I can be naked all the time at home, which, for me is almost all the time. I only go out for an average of 3 hours a day, so I'm happy to be naked 21/7. -- Tad ( NudeCreations.com & JTK.CA ) NudistPoet
I retired in 2004, at age 36. If you're jealous, I suggest you be careful what you wish for. The only reason I'm retired is due to a mental illness, Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. I get Disability pensions for my OCD, and it's my only income. Fortunately, my parents live just two kilometres down the road from me, so I go to their place for supper most nights, which explains the 3 hours of being clothed. The rest of the time, I'm a happy home nudist 21/7.
I have a degree in graphic design and did work in it for a few months, until the OCD killed the job. Most of my other jobs were janitorial. The OCD killed the last two janitorial jobs too. So, basically, I'm a retired janitor. That's why my apartment's a mess ;-) -- I'm a "retired" janitor ;-)
I now also have the freedom to share my art and poetry online, and I really enjoy sharing it because I don't "have to". If I "had to", I'd avoid it like the plague. OCD is an anxiety disorder. With the Disability pensions and other supports I have set up, there is less anxiety in my life than when I had to worry about finding and keeping jobs, but, with the OCD there is still plenty of anxiety, just a little less. That's why my creations are free for you to enjoy on my websites. I just want to share. I don't want to be dependent on them. That's too much stress. I have enough anxiety as it is, and I'm thankful for the many supports with which God has blessed me.
JTK.CA
© Tad "JTK.CA" NudistPoet
I love being retired. It means I can be naked all the time at home, which, for me is almost all the time. I only go out for an average of 3 hours a day, so I'm happy to be naked 21/7. -- Tad ( NudeCreations.com & JTK.CA ) NudistPoet
I retired in 2004, at age 36. If you're jealous, I suggest you be careful what you wish for. The only reason I'm retired is due to a mental illness, Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. I get Disability pensions for my OCD, and it's my only income. Fortunately, my parents live just two kilometres down the road from me, so I go to their place for supper most nights, which explains the 3 hours of being clothed. The rest of the time, I'm a happy home nudist 21/7.
I have a degree in graphic design and did work in it for a few months, until the OCD killed the job. Most of my other jobs were janitorial. The OCD killed the last two janitorial jobs too. So, basically, I'm a retired janitor. That's why my apartment's a mess ;-) -- I'm a "retired" janitor ;-)
I now also have the freedom to share my art and poetry online, and I really enjoy sharing it because I don't "have to". If I "had to", I'd avoid it like the plague. OCD is an anxiety disorder. With the Disability pensions and other supports I have set up, there is less anxiety in my life than when I had to worry about finding and keeping jobs, but, with the OCD there is still plenty of anxiety, just a little less. That's why my creations are free for you to enjoy on my websites. I just want to share. I don't want to be dependent on them. That's too much stress. I have enough anxiety as it is, and I'm thankful for the many supports with which God has blessed me.
JTK.CA
2011-07-23
"CHOIRS ARE FUN" :::: © Tad "JTK.CA" NudistPoet
"CHOIRS ARE FUN"
© Tad "JTK.CA" NudistPoet
Choirs are fun. I've sung solos and been in choirs from my early 10's to my late 30's. I'm 43 and a hermit now (2011-06-08). Besides going to my parents' place for supper most nights, I live happily alone in my apartment. I'm alone, but not lonely. facebook.com/JTK.CA has become my social life.
I'm on Disability pensions for my Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD). My OCD kept killing my jobs, so I decided to stop torturing myself and get the help I needed. I'm much happier now that I've retired from the work world. I also like living alone, because, I don't have to explain all my weird OCD rituals to anyone. Once in a while, I get frustrated with the rituals. But, for the most part, I'm at peace with my OCD and have fun with my mental illness, or is it mental illnesses (plural)? Like my grandfather used to say, "Might as well laugh as cry." Basically, when I'm home alone, I'm a complete loon, and I love it! Mirrors were made for making faces in.
© Tad "JTK.CA" NudistPoet
Choirs are fun. I've sung solos and been in choirs from my early 10's to my late 30's. I'm 43 and a hermit now (2011-06-08). Besides going to my parents' place for supper most nights, I live happily alone in my apartment. I'm alone, but not lonely. facebook.com/JTK.CA has become my social life.
I'm on Disability pensions for my Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD). My OCD kept killing my jobs, so I decided to stop torturing myself and get the help I needed. I'm much happier now that I've retired from the work world. I also like living alone, because, I don't have to explain all my weird OCD rituals to anyone. Once in a while, I get frustrated with the rituals. But, for the most part, I'm at peace with my OCD and have fun with my mental illness, or is it mental illnesses (plural)? Like my grandfather used to say, "Might as well laugh as cry." Basically, when I'm home alone, I'm a complete loon, and I love it! Mirrors were made for making faces in.
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Photo of me with my turtle pillow I named Simon Yertle. His back is divided into four colours, like the electronic sound game Simon (https://g.co/kgs/ZjNn4H). And, of course, Yertle is in honour of Dr. Seuss. |
2014-05-24
“WE EACH HAVE OUR OWN CHAMBER OF HORRORS” by JTK.CA
“WE EACH HAVE OUR OWN CHAMBER OF HORRORS” by JTK.CA
Actually, as desperate as I am for romance, there’s also a part of me that says, “I’m too lazy to get married. And besides, marriage is hard work, and I hate hard work.” As much as I’d like to have someone to come home to, it is really nice to not have anyone to come home to. Alone and lonely are two different things. I love being alone but hate being lonely. One advantage to living alone is that I don’t have to explain all my weird OCD rituals to anyone. And, when I’m by myself, the rituals don’t really bother me, except when they get out of control. I just accept the fact that I have OCD and am at peace with it. I think that’s just the way God designed my brain, and he does not make mistakes. If I did not have OCD, I very much doubt that I would be the creative, intellectual, perfectionistic person you know. Because of my OCD, I make a lot less mistakes when doing something. It takes me forever, but I’m a lot more careful than the average Joe or Josephine. I still worry about making mistakes, but I think that’s the main reason I make so few. I am obsessed with doing things perfectly. Even creative stuff I’ve had on display for years is always primed for tweaking. I’m always finding ways to make some little detail better. But that perfectionism is also exhausting and prevents me from even starting projects because the thought of doing them perfectly is so overwhelming. As my cousin Doug Root, brilliantly put it, “We each have our own chamber of horrors.”
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Tad “JTK.CA” NudistPoet
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© Jonathan Tad Ketchen
JTK.CA = My MAIN site & PEN NAME
NudistPoet.com = My SAMPLER
TadCreations.com = My BLOGS
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Actually, as desperate as I am for romance, there’s also a part of me that says, “I’m too lazy to get married. And besides, marriage is hard work, and I hate hard work.” As much as I’d like to have someone to come home to, it is really nice to not have anyone to come home to. Alone and lonely are two different things. I love being alone but hate being lonely. One advantage to living alone is that I don’t have to explain all my weird OCD rituals to anyone. And, when I’m by myself, the rituals don’t really bother me, except when they get out of control. I just accept the fact that I have OCD and am at peace with it. I think that’s just the way God designed my brain, and he does not make mistakes. If I did not have OCD, I very much doubt that I would be the creative, intellectual, perfectionistic person you know. Because of my OCD, I make a lot less mistakes when doing something. It takes me forever, but I’m a lot more careful than the average Joe or Josephine. I still worry about making mistakes, but I think that’s the main reason I make so few. I am obsessed with doing things perfectly. Even creative stuff I’ve had on display for years is always primed for tweaking. I’m always finding ways to make some little detail better. But that perfectionism is also exhausting and prevents me from even starting projects because the thought of doing them perfectly is so overwhelming. As my cousin Doug Root, brilliantly put it, “We each have our own chamber of horrors.”
© JTK.CA
Tad “JTK.CA” NudistPoet
(NudeCreations.com)
© Jonathan Tad Ketchen
JTK.CA = My MAIN site & PEN NAME
NudistPoet.com = My SAMPLER
TadCreations.com = My BLOGS
NudeCreations.com = My NUDES
twitter.com/NudistPoet
NudeCreations.TUMBLR.com
SoundCloud.com/NudistPoet
YouTube.com/NudistPoet
2020-03-28
"OCD Apocalypse" by JTK.CA
"OCD Apocalypse" by JTK.CA
Part of my Severe OCD is massively overusing toilet paper. So, in a way, this #coronapocalypse has been excellent therapy. I've been cutting way, way, way back!
Part of my Severe OCD is massively overusing toilet paper. So, in a way, this #coronapocalypse has been excellent therapy. I've been cutting way, way, way back!
Mom (Evelyn Ketchen) once asked me about my overuse of toilet paper, "Do you have PICA (the disease in which you eat strange things)?" No, I don't have PICA. 🤣 She also told me about an episode of a medical reality show, in which a patient who had PICA and ate toilet paper came in. During the patient's discharge from the hospital, the doctor handed her another roll of toilet paper, saying, "One for the road." 🤣💖
-- JTK.CA
2011-06-27
"My plans went sideways. Well; there's always innovation." :::: © Tad "JTK.CA" NudistPoet
"My plans went sideways. Well; there's always innovation."
TAD is JTK.CA NudistPoet
Copyright © Jonathan Tad Ketchen
I groomed by beard to look good. Next, the plan was to take a shower before going to my cousin's 40th wedding anniversary party, but the shower was squealing. So I adjusted my plans, and went to the party, with the intent of doing laundry and taking a bath when I got home. The party was great. I shot 126 pictures and shot one movie of an inch-worm inching along for ten minutes. I got back home, did the laundry, cleaned the bathroom, and took a bath. What came over me?! I'm uber-proud of myself! For once, I used my OCD to my advantage. Activities of daily living are usually really difficult for me, with my OCD. But over the past day, I've kicked OCD's ass! :-) ♥ :-) ♥ I'LL PROBABLY BE A ZOMBIE TOMORROW. ;-P
JTK.CA
TAD is JTK.CA NudistPoet
Copyright © Jonathan Tad Ketchen
I groomed by beard to look good. Next, the plan was to take a shower before going to my cousin's 40th wedding anniversary party, but the shower was squealing. So I adjusted my plans, and went to the party, with the intent of doing laundry and taking a bath when I got home. The party was great. I shot 126 pictures and shot one movie of an inch-worm inching along for ten minutes. I got back home, did the laundry, cleaned the bathroom, and took a bath. What came over me?! I'm uber-proud of myself! For once, I used my OCD to my advantage. Activities of daily living are usually really difficult for me, with my OCD. But over the past day, I've kicked OCD's ass! :-) ♥ :-) ♥ I'LL PROBABLY BE A ZOMBIE TOMORROW. ;-P
JTK.CA
2011-05-06
"BEST OF BOTH WORLDS" :::: © Tad "JTK.CA" NudistPoet
"BEST OF BOTH WORLDS"
© Tad "JTK.CA" NudistPoet
Well, bit.ly/GuelphSchoolOfArt just called, and cancelled my nude modelling session because their original model was feeling better and coming in after all. I'm not disappointed. I'm happy that I got the call, and the School said they'll call me back in the future if they need me, and they'll give me more than just one day's notice, like they did yesterday. Honestly, I'm a bit relieved they cancelled. But I look forward to trying it out if they call again in the future. Generally, though, I think I'll stick with retirement from the work world. I like it. :-) I've been retired since age 36, in 2004; when I went on federal and provincial Disability pensions for my Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD). The OCD kept killing my jobs, so I decided to stop torturing myself. My bosses were always thrilled with the amazing quality of my work, but rather miffed at the paltry quantity. With the OCD, it generally takes me three times longer (than a normal person) for me to do everything.
JTK.CA
© Tad "JTK.CA" NudistPoet
Well, bit.ly/GuelphSchoolOfArt just called, and cancelled my nude modelling session because their original model was feeling better and coming in after all. I'm not disappointed. I'm happy that I got the call, and the School said they'll call me back in the future if they need me, and they'll give me more than just one day's notice, like they did yesterday. Honestly, I'm a bit relieved they cancelled. But I look forward to trying it out if they call again in the future. Generally, though, I think I'll stick with retirement from the work world. I like it. :-) I've been retired since age 36, in 2004; when I went on federal and provincial Disability pensions for my Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD). The OCD kept killing my jobs, so I decided to stop torturing myself. My bosses were always thrilled with the amazing quality of my work, but rather miffed at the paltry quantity. With the OCD, it generally takes me three times longer (than a normal person) for me to do everything.
JTK.CA
2010-06-02
"OPHELIA CORDELIA DELILAH" ::::: © JTK.CA
"OPHELIA CORDELIA DELILAH" ::::: © JTK.CA
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder controls every aspect of my life. I have all kinds of weird little rituals, so one thing I like about being single, is my OCD and I don't have to worry about explaining ourselves to someone else. I love people and being with people, but for the most part, I like being alone, free from the expectations of others, free to just be me, no questions asked.
In a way, OCD and I are married. We are inseparable and, for the most part, at peace with each other. We get on each other's nerves from time to time, but we make up quickly. OCD (or Ophelia Cordelia Delilah as I sometimes call her) were made for each other. I wouldn't be the creative person I am without her, and she would have nothing to do and no one to inspire without me. She gives me suggestions all the time. I often think they're brilliant and go with them. But, sometimes, I just ignore her. Still, Ophelia Cordelia Delilah usually gets her way. I'm at peace with that.
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JONATHAN TAD KETCHEN Creative Adventurer (JTK.CA)
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder controls every aspect of my life. I have all kinds of weird little rituals, so one thing I like about being single, is my OCD and I don't have to worry about explaining ourselves to someone else. I love people and being with people, but for the most part, I like being alone, free from the expectations of others, free to just be me, no questions asked.
In a way, OCD and I are married. We are inseparable and, for the most part, at peace with each other. We get on each other's nerves from time to time, but we make up quickly. OCD (or Ophelia Cordelia Delilah as I sometimes call her) were made for each other. I wouldn't be the creative person I am without her, and she would have nothing to do and no one to inspire without me. She gives me suggestions all the time. I often think they're brilliant and go with them. But, sometimes, I just ignore her. Still, Ophelia Cordelia Delilah usually gets her way. I'm at peace with that.
http://JTK.CA
JONATHAN TAD KETCHEN Creative Adventurer (JTK.CA)
2018-01-10
“OCD DISCOVERY” by JTK.CA
“OCD DISCOVERY” by http://JTK.CA
© http://JTK.CA
Tad “JTK.CA” NudistPoet
(http://NudeCreations.com)
© Jonathan Tad Ketchen
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Guelph, Ontario, Canada
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519-780-1057 (Home)
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Back around 1988 when I was 20, Mom was watching The Oprah Winfrey Show, and the topic was Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. Mom’s reaction was, “THAT’S WHAT JONATHAN HAS!” Later in the day, she was listening to Dr. James Dobson on the radio, and his topic was also OCD! Amazing! Thanks to both of them for the answer to why I am the way I am. I’ve always had http://bit.ly/SevereOCD but did not know it until that very interesting day! In a way, I’m glad we didn’t find out until “after” I had graduated from high school. Otherwise, I might have been in special ed. As it ended up, I graduated number 3 in a class of 15. I think my average was 87%. Not knowing about my condition was a blessing because it pushed me to succeed, not knowing I had an excuse. However, knowing, a couple of decades into my life, also became a blessing, because it explained everything. I managed to retire from the work world in 2004 at age 36 on Disability pensions for my http://bit.ly/SevereOCD. I kept losing jobs over it, so I decided to stop torturing myself. — Jonathan Tad Ketchen
© http://JTK.CA
Tad “JTK.CA” NudistPoet
(http://NudeCreations.com)
© Jonathan Tad Ketchen
http://TadCreations.com
Guelph, Ontario, Canada
http://NudistPoet.com
519-780-1057 (Home)
Tad@NudistPoet.com
519-830-4812 (Mobile)
http://MemoriesAndPredictions.TUMBLR.com
2010-02-07
"INSPIRED BY NOT HAVING TO BE INSPIRED" ::: © JTK.CA
"INSPIRED BY NOT HAVING TO BE INSPIRED"
by JTK.CA
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I'm inspired by the fact that I "don't have to" be inspired. I've been retired on Disability pensions for my Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) since 2004. Not having the pressures of work or finding work lets my creativity flow freely. I share my Creations online http://JTK.CA and it is mainly because I "don't" have to. If I were being an artist for a living, I think I'd just move into procrastination mode and starve to death. Obligations (with my OCD) cause me so much stress, that I have as few obligations as possible in my life, so that I can just go with the flow, peacefully. The thing I love about sharing my art is that I "don't have to." ;-)
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TAD is JTK.CA NudistPoet
JTK.CA = Tad's Pen Name & "MAIN" Blog
TadCreations.com = Tad's "My Blogs" Listing (Art, Poems, Photos, Stories, etc.)
NudistPoet.com = Tad's HQ, Bio, Nudist Christian Beliefs, and "Clothing Optional" Digital Stage
NudeCreations.com = Tad's "NAKED" Universe
Copyright © Jonathan Tad Ketchen (JTK.CA)
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TAD'S NOTE: "INSPIRED BY NOT HAVING TO BE INSPIRED" was inspired by the inspirational Zoë Scott http://ZoeScott.com who asked me what inspired me.
Inspirationally yours ;-)
Tad
http://JTK.CA
NudistPoet
by JTK.CA
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I'm inspired by the fact that I "don't have to" be inspired. I've been retired on Disability pensions for my Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) since 2004. Not having the pressures of work or finding work lets my creativity flow freely. I share my Creations online http://JTK.CA and it is mainly because I "don't" have to. If I were being an artist for a living, I think I'd just move into procrastination mode and starve to death. Obligations (with my OCD) cause me so much stress, that I have as few obligations as possible in my life, so that I can just go with the flow, peacefully. The thing I love about sharing my art is that I "don't have to." ;-)
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TAD is JTK.CA NudistPoet
JTK.CA = Tad's Pen Name & "MAIN" Blog
TadCreations.com = Tad's "My Blogs" Listing (Art, Poems, Photos, Stories, etc.)
NudistPoet.com = Tad's HQ, Bio, Nudist Christian Beliefs, and "Clothing Optional" Digital Stage
NudeCreations.com = Tad's "NAKED" Universe
Copyright © Jonathan Tad Ketchen (JTK.CA)
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TAD'S NOTE: "INSPIRED BY NOT HAVING TO BE INSPIRED" was inspired by the inspirational Zoë Scott http://ZoeScott.com who asked me what inspired me.
Inspirationally yours ;-)
Tad
http://JTK.CA
NudistPoet
2014-02-21
"NOT KNOWING IS SOMETIMES BETTER" :::: © Tad "JTK.CA" NudistPoet
"NOT KNOWING IS SOMETIMES BETTER"
© Tad "JTK.CA" NudistPoet
I've had Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) my entire life, but I wasn't diagnosed until I was 20. Actually, I'm glad. Not knowing had its advantages. I pushed myself harder, because I didn't have an excuse. And I graduated high school #3 in a class of 15, with a B+ (87 or 88%) average. I'm glad I was diagnosed after graduating high school. Otherwise, I surmise I would have been put in special ed. Nothing against special ed, but "not knowing" about my OCD was a blessing, because it pushed me to do better, since I had no excuse (that I knew of).
JTK.CA
© Tad "JTK.CA" NudistPoet
I've had Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) my entire life, but I wasn't diagnosed until I was 20. Actually, I'm glad. Not knowing had its advantages. I pushed myself harder, because I didn't have an excuse. And I graduated high school #3 in a class of 15, with a B+ (87 or 88%) average. I'm glad I was diagnosed after graduating high school. Otherwise, I surmise I would have been put in special ed. Nothing against special ed, but "not knowing" about my OCD was a blessing, because it pushed me to do better, since I had no excuse (that I knew of).
JTK.CA
2019-12-15
“WHY I’M SINGLE AND CONTENT BEING A HERMIT” by http://JTK.CA
I only shave my neckbeard once or twice a month when it gets too itchy. That’s also why I’m not a big webcammer. Also, my OCD-induced ablutophobia (fear of bathing) is so bad that showering fills me with a feeling of nostalgia, which is why I keep most of my social life online. 🤪 The cashiers at the Variety Store next door “are” my social life. http://bit.ly/SevereOCD is all my blog posts on my life with Severe Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder and why life has been so much simpler for me since I got tired of losing jobs over the OCD and went on Disability pensions in 2004 at age 36. Best decision I ever made! Much happier now!
I only shave my neckbeard once or twice a month when it gets too itchy. That’s also why I’m not a big webcammer. Also, my OCD-induced ablutophobia (fear of bathing) is so bad that showering fills me with a feeling of nostalgia, which is why I keep most of my social life online. 🤪 The cashiers at the Variety Store next door “are” my social life. http://bit.ly/SevereOCD is all my blog posts on my life with Severe Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder and why life has been so much simpler for me since I got tired of losing jobs over the OCD and went on Disability pensions in 2004 at age 36. Best decision I ever made! Much happier now!
2007-03-09
2010-04-18
"COVENANT COLLEGE: THE BEST TWO YEARS OF MY LIFE" ::: © JTK.CA
"COVENANT COLLEGE: THE BEST TWO YEARS OF MY LIFE"
by JTK.CA
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Covenant College Chapel
My two years (Aug. '87 to May '88 & Jan. '89 to Dec. '89) at Covenant College (www.covenant.edu), in Lookout Mountain, Georgia, U.S.A., were two of the happiest, most spiritually rich years of my life. I loved the campus, the people, the mountaintop environment. If you ever choose to go to Covenant College (www.covenant.edu) in Lookout Mountain, Georgia, U.S.A., just don't make my mistake. I enjoyed it so much that I left on academic suspension ;-)
Carter Hall, Covenant College
The video on this Covenant College giving page very nicely sums up my experience on the mountaintop and makes me homesick.
http://www.covenant.edu/giving
It shows beautiful views of the scenic, mountaintop campus.
Eventually, in Dec. '95, I "did" receive my Bachelor of Arts from Valparaiso University (www.valpo.edu), in Valparaiso, Indiana, U.S.A. My major was ART (with a GRAPHIC DESIGN concentration), and my individualized minor was THEATRE AND DANCE. Naturally, all this led to several janitorial jobs ;-)
Now I'm happily settled back in my home country of Canada. After getting tired of losing jobs due to my Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD), I decided to stop torturing myself and get the help I needed. Therefore, I've been happily retired on Disability pensions for my OCD, since 2004. There's still a lot of stress in my life, with an anxiety disorder, but there's a lot less without the worries of getting and keeping jobs. Now my life is devoted to sharing my "JONATHAN TAD KETCHEN Creative Adventures" (JTK.CA) online, and there's no pressure, because I don't have to do it.
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TAD is JTK.CA NudistPoet
JTK.CA = Tad's Pen Name & "MAIN" Blog
TadCreations.com = Tad's "My Blogs" Listing (Art, Poems, Photos, Stories, etc.)
NudistPoet.com = Tad's HQ, Bio, Nudist Christian Beliefs, and "Clothing Optional" Digital Stage
NudeCreations.com = Tad's "NAKED" Universe
Copyright © Jonathan Tad Ketchen (JTK.CA)
by JTK.CA
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Covenant College ChapelMy two years (Aug. '87 to May '88 & Jan. '89 to Dec. '89) at Covenant College (www.covenant.edu), in Lookout Mountain, Georgia, U.S.A., were two of the happiest, most spiritually rich years of my life. I loved the campus, the people, the mountaintop environment. If you ever choose to go to Covenant College (www.covenant.edu) in Lookout Mountain, Georgia, U.S.A., just don't make my mistake. I enjoyed it so much that I left on academic suspension ;-)
Carter Hall, Covenant CollegeThe video on this Covenant College giving page very nicely sums up my experience on the mountaintop and makes me homesick.
http://www.covenant.edu/giving
It shows beautiful views of the scenic, mountaintop campus.
Eventually, in Dec. '95, I "did" receive my Bachelor of Arts from Valparaiso University (www.valpo.edu), in Valparaiso, Indiana, U.S.A. My major was ART (with a GRAPHIC DESIGN concentration), and my individualized minor was THEATRE AND DANCE. Naturally, all this led to several janitorial jobs ;-)
Now I'm happily settled back in my home country of Canada. After getting tired of losing jobs due to my Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD), I decided to stop torturing myself and get the help I needed. Therefore, I've been happily retired on Disability pensions for my OCD, since 2004. There's still a lot of stress in my life, with an anxiety disorder, but there's a lot less without the worries of getting and keeping jobs. Now my life is devoted to sharing my "JONATHAN TAD KETCHEN Creative Adventures" (JTK.CA) online, and there's no pressure, because I don't have to do it.
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TAD is JTK.CA NudistPoet
JTK.CA = Tad's Pen Name & "MAIN" Blog
TadCreations.com = Tad's "My Blogs" Listing (Art, Poems, Photos, Stories, etc.)
NudistPoet.com = Tad's HQ, Bio, Nudist Christian Beliefs, and "Clothing Optional" Digital Stage
NudeCreations.com = Tad's "NAKED" Universe
Copyright © Jonathan Tad Ketchen (JTK.CA)
2008-01-02
OCD JPG
"OCD JPG (for the artist's own amusement)"
by JTK.CA
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TAD is JTK.CA NudistPoet
JTK.CA = Tad's Pen Name & "MAIN" Blog
TadCreations.com = Tad's "My Blogs" Listing (Art, Poems, Photos, Stories, etc.)
NudistPoet.com = Tad's HQ, Bio, Nudist Christian Beliefs, and "Clothing Optional" Digital Stage
NudeCreations.com = Tad's "NAKED" Universe
Copyright © Jonathan Tad Ketchen (JTK.CA)
by JTK.CA
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TAD is JTK.CA NudistPoet
JTK.CA = Tad's Pen Name & "MAIN" Blog
TadCreations.com = Tad's "My Blogs" Listing (Art, Poems, Photos, Stories, etc.)
NudistPoet.com = Tad's HQ, Bio, Nudist Christian Beliefs, and "Clothing Optional" Digital Stage
NudeCreations.com = Tad's "NAKED" Universe
Copyright © Jonathan Tad Ketchen (JTK.CA)
2012-07-23
"TAUNTED: LIFE WITH OCD" ::: © JTK.CA
"TAUNTED: LIFE WITH OCD"
TAD is JTK.CA NudistPoet
Copyright © Jonathan Tad Ketchen
Taunted by the jeers
Of my own internal propoganda,
"You'll fail.
You always do.
You wouldn't be able to handle success."
Taunted by the jeers
Of my own internal propoganda,
I stagnate
In the status woe of quo.
I tell myself I'm happy.
I tell the world I'm happy.
But the truth is
I'm used to the way things are.
I'm afraid to push myself.
"What if I'm successful?
Then I'd have to stand on my own two feet.
And knowing me, I'd eventually fall.
I always do."
So many dreams of my triumphs
Are defeated by my own inactions.
TAD is JTK.CA NudistPoet
Copyright © Jonathan Tad Ketchen
Taunted by the jeers
Of my own internal propoganda,
"You'll fail.
You always do.
You wouldn't be able to handle success."
Taunted by the jeers
Of my own internal propoganda,
I stagnate
In the status woe of quo.
I tell myself I'm happy.
I tell the world I'm happy.
But the truth is
I'm used to the way things are.
I'm afraid to push myself.
"What if I'm successful?
Then I'd have to stand on my own two feet.
And knowing me, I'd eventually fall.
I always do."
So many dreams of my triumphs
Are defeated by my own inactions.
2009-05-12
"SURVIVOR" ::: © JTK.CA
"SURVIVOR"
by JTK.CA
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I'm taking my Prozac
In preparation for my daily boxing match with OCD.
OCD usually wins,
But I always survive to fight another round!
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TAD is JTK.CA NudistPoet
http://JTK.CA = Tad's MAIN Blog
http://TadCreations.com = Tad's INDEX of Blogs
http://NudistPoet.com = Tad's Official NudistPoet HQ, Bio, and Digital Stage
http://NudeCreations.com = Tad's NAKED Blog
Copyright © Jonathan Tad Ketchen (JTK.CA)
by JTK.CA
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I'm taking my Prozac
In preparation for my daily boxing match with OCD.
OCD usually wins,
But I always survive to fight another round!
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TAD is JTK.CA NudistPoet
http://JTK.CA = Tad's MAIN Blog
http://TadCreations.com = Tad's INDEX of Blogs
http://NudistPoet.com = Tad's Official NudistPoet HQ, Bio, and Digital Stage
http://NudeCreations.com = Tad's NAKED Blog
Copyright © Jonathan Tad Ketchen (JTK.CA)
2021-04-21
I hate shaving. That’s why I have a beard. But even with that, I still need to occasionally shave my neckbeard and I’m wondering how much permanent neckbeard removal costs. Yes, I’m really that lazy. Actually, more accurately, I’m really that overwhelmed by OCD. I avoid as many activities of daily living as possible because they overwhelm me. bitly.com/SevereOCD = all my blog posts on my life on Disability pensions for my OCD. Enjoy my neurosis. 🤪
2011-06-01
"BABY STEPS" :::: © Tad "JTK.CA" NudistPoet
"BABY STEPS"
© Tad "JTK.CA" NudistPoet
JTK.CA
© Tad "JTK.CA" NudistPoet
My baby step was sorting SOME of my laundry, so I can do it whenever I get around to the next baby step. With OCD, activities of daily living are torture. It's good that I'm not married and don't have kids, because I have enough trouble taking care of myself. I'm happy though. With my Disability pensions and the other supports I receive, I'm getting the help I need.
JTK.CA
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